Hepi besday darling.

Assalamualaikum

13 February in every year is My Anuar birthday.
But dis year things not goes as usual...It's unusual...

Why it's unusual?
Becoz I didn't buy anything as prezen to him....
Normally there's must be something that i gave him..

But It's unusual too becoz i cook for him...
I never cook on his besday...but on dat day I cooked.
I cook ayam panggang, cake, tomyam,
Tu jer pun...but it's unusual laaa...

Ayam tu pun sebab dah di marinate siap beli kat Giant...easy job for a lovely ladylazy....
I refuse to stress...now time to work smart on everything...kalau nak panggang ayam beli siap marinate, kalau nak pizza beli yang frozen tak pun delivery, kalau nak tomyam beli pes tomyam banyak2...rebus jer n campak masuk segala yg diinginkan.

Saya dah tak mahu stress...saya mahu pahala...better we work on something small, but reward is big...yang penting is sincere n honest...sincerity is is MUST.
Waktu saya menaip utk entry ni, everybody dah sleep...My Reezky dah sleep, My hubby and all sons yang lain, they had sailed....

I tau my Hubby will never read my blog, but he know dat i have blog coz dia pernah terbuka dan terbaca...but then dia act like nothing.  He such a person that really difficult to express what he feel. Not to say his EGO, but some sort like that.....never discuss in detail something border him, something annoy him, something dat distract him from doing thing.....
U know kan ada lelaki yg macam ni. But then I know marriage is something that full with mysterious. Even though we had in dis relationship for too long...I mean 5 years before marriage and 11 years dah marriage its was a long..long...long relationship I think. But definitely it  didn't promise U that 100% you know your partner.  Or I yang tak dak effort sgt nak kenal in detail...( dat what Mr Anuar claimed on me la). It just I'm too busy with his kids la jugak...
But I know dat  he really love me so much.  Honestly antara saya dan dia, dia yg akan sentiasa cuba utk berbaik2 sepanjang masa...tapi saya ni sebab letih moody la...baran la...dingin la...meluat la...berdosa gila saya pada dia. Tapi saya dah insaf dah lately.  Amarah lelaki ni lebih cepat cool berbanding wanita.  Sikap saya ni perlu diubah. Perlu lebih menerima dan redha. Perlu lebih terbuka dan bersedia. Perlu lebih peka dan sabar. Insyaallah for better or worse, till death do us part, I love U for every beaten my heart...I swear in the name of Allah.

Just nak wish U a very happy besday.  Semoga Allah panjangkan usia, semoga Allah jadikan kita insan yang kuat untuk membesarkan amanahNya,  Ikatan ini adalah keranaNya dan kepadaNya juga kita serahkan laluan hidup ini samada ianya bersimpang siur, lurus kehadapan, bengkang bengkok, curam, semuanya akan kita lalui. 

I know that U are such great inspiration to kids..better then me.....hope to see that all of us will get  a great place in Jannah. U, Me, Kids...n family....we are one...I love U more than I can say.....Hepi besday....hepi besday darling...

Gambar berdua mmg payah sebab En Anuar x mesra bergambar....bila terpaksa..tak boleh kata apa kan....